‘Believe you’re there before you get there’

If it feels like your dream is taking ages to materialise…wait for it

I remember going to see the film The Women when it came out in 2008 and the two friends I went with told me that they saw me as someone who would most definitely realise all my personal and professional dreams.  

Fast forward to 2022 and all those dreams still seem a long way away, especially when I compare myself (fruitlessly I realise), to my peers. I recently stumbled across the Instagram page of someone I modelled with years ago. At the time, I had been chosen by the designer to close the show with him - an honour bestowed on the model the designer favoured the most. Today, that fellow model’s profile has developed to having almost 65,000 followers on Instagram where she is courted by numerous fashion brands, while my own following languishes under 2,000 and I’m still paying for my own Balenciaga. 

It’s a weird place to be, this space between believing deep down that you have this God-given idea or dream to do something new - even magical or wonderful - but it just doesn’t make sense on paper and feels so out of reach. I am carrying so many plans and ideas close to my heart that it feels futile to reveal because they seem impossible. But the other day I felt reminded to consider two stories that made me feel like maybe, just maybe, there’s a timing implication to all of this stuff.